Well, maybe I just need to blog -it-out here because my crabby pants are wound super tight tonight!
Reasons why I could POSSIBLY be so damn crabby the day after the oh-so-holly-jolly-Christmas-day....
1.) Felt like I was going to work on a Saturday as the roads were dead, weary was my head, and I didn’t feel particularly “alert” in any fashion.
2.) My boots were in slush for like 1/2 a f’n second and the socks were already wet before I stepped into work.
3.) I was all geared up to NOT eat shit today and was greeted by an 8 lb carrot cake someone brought as “leftovers.” Played the whole not-gonna-have-any, wait-maybe-a-little-slice, should-I?, no!yes!no!yes! game and the next thing you know I ate way too much carrot cake and scolded myself continuously all morning long. F%#k!
4.) Was told that I looked tired. Granted maybe I WAS tired but I don’t need confirmation .
5.) Felt sad. Just cuz. People aren’t always nice. A reminder that no one needs to be “good” anymore as Christmas is over.
6.) The Christmas tunes played extra loud today and I wasn’t in the mood for any more chestnuts roasting on an open fire lyrics. Do people really do that anyways?! And what the hell are chestnuts?!
7.) I realized that I am lonely. Lonely for friends and companionship and laughter. Things that should happen more often in my life than once every few months. Realized that I need to call more people. Got sad again. Realized no one calls ME.
8.) Got my period. Realized I had no tampons. Ran out to my car and found one in the glove box. May as well have been an icicle. I had to crank up the thermostat after that one.
9.) Realized how much I despise Winter and darkness and all things COLD. Realized I cannot escape this.
10.) After working a 10 1/2 hr day and finally starting to drive home I had the pleasure of being greeted by a douchebag on wheels right up on my ass within the first 2 miles. I impatiently switched lanes and so did he. Tailing my ass like a f’n moth to a flame. My inner road rage demon of which I never allow to release herself suddenly ripped through my chest with a vengeance that no part of my conscious mind could contain. GAME ON. I’m not sure what happened after that but I snapped. Suddenly it became the first scene from National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation. He sped by me just so I could see him wave his middle finger at me only to then slow down and revert back to tailing my ass again because the other lane was slower. I was now doing 75 in a 55 for fear his bumper would end up inside my trunk. This shit went on as I spewed words that would make a trucker cringe and literally was out of my mind. He then thought it would be a smart ass move to blow past me in the right lane as the vehicles started to veer towards the exit ramp. I saw his finger once again begin to raise although it never quite made it’s full erection because a yellow van with no windows suddenly decided it was NOT the exit they were to take and quickly veered directly in front of douchebag on wheels, cutting him off in such a manner that his only option was to veer off into the ditch. Where he stayed. Stuck I presume. My cuss words turned to praise. A loud, singing, hahaha, jubilantly revenge ridden type of ditty. Eat my slush succcckkkkkaaaa!! Ha!
Anyhow, so the day after Christmas wasn’t so jolly. In part I think it’s because there’s this ridiculously over-rated hype and build up for December 25th. What goes up must come down. Once it’s over, it’s kind of like “huh, well I guess life goes on now...” Life is good, life is great, but it’s possibly a reminder that we shouldn’t just feel this way once a year. The gathering of family and loved ones, the dressing up and cooking a nice dinner for those who mean something to you, or sending a card just to say hello with a few pictures inside could go on all year round at random instead of just this one month. I think that’s what hit me. I need more excitement in my life. I need more real conversation. More real moments. That is what makes me tick. Everyone goes into hibernation in Winter! Come out and play people! (Just not in the snow, I can’t stand that stuff)
So tomorrow? I vow to not be crabby. And if I run into douchebag on wheels again I’ll keep my mouth shut and be polite with a smile and a wave as I run him off the road.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
~Love Actually~
Love Actually....
It’s the movie of all movies. From the moment it starts, ten different baits are cast at my heart, hooked at all angles and reeled in. My soul is taken to a magical land of emotion for over an hour and a half then returned to my fluttering chest. Swollen, burning and beaming with sensations that only a good film can create. Every time I watch it I pick up on something new and the lessons so eloquently imbedded in this motion picture are endless. It’s like some intense educational course that rides you along a roller coaster of love, wisdom, and the ever-changing adventures of the heart.
Here is my take on the top TEN lessons on love brought to you by the glorious film “Love Actually”
1.) Love speaks no language, knows no age, and has no agenda. It has no comprehension of inconvenience, no sense of time and no control, yet if you let it, it can still conquer all.
2.) There may be more than one person in the world for you but nobody in the world will be able to tell you that when you are deep in the throes of love. If someone has it bad for a particular person they get tunnel vision and there is nothing you can do to change their mind.
3.) It’s true. Women love musicians. If you don’t have looks on your side I suggest you pick up a guitar and give it your all. Even the ugliest of musicians can find love! Look at Mick Jagger and Steven Tyler.
4.) If you go to a bar in Wisconsin it’s pretty easy to get laid, especially if you have an accent and are willing to shell out a few bucks to buy her drinks. Or just hit up the Midwest in general. Preferably the small towns, those girls like to party and are drawn to guys that “aren’t from around here.” It’s like a moth to a flame.
5.) Music touches the soul. Joni Mitchell writes from down deep and even though she claims to not know love at all I think she has a pretty good grasp at the strings of it. Evidence found in lyrics such as:
“Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "i love you" right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say
I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions i recall.
I really don't know life at all.”
6.) You can’t help the ones you love. Whether it be your best friend’s wife, your much older and very married boss, or a brown eyed beauty that doesn’t speak a lick of English. It’s really worth saying again: You can’t help the ones you love. Sometimes it feels wrong and sometimes it feels right but either way sometimes it’s out of your hands. It may work in your favor or it may teach you a lesson. Do with it what you may but be aware that love can be a gamble. Know when to held ‘em and know when to fold ‘em.
7.) Love is everywhere. You can’t escape it. Even if your heart feels like it has been ripped out of your chest by a dagger and left to wither away slowly, aching and swollen and totally disarranged. I assure you love is waiting on the side lines. You may lose a spouse. Your wife may be sleeping with your brother. Your husband has a wandering eye. These things happen every day but I assure you LOVE will still be there, in a new form just around the corner. It waits patiently. You cannot hide from it, love will find you.
8.) The purchasing of jewelry is reserved for your significant other. Women always appreciate a nice piece of jewelry and don’t think otherwise. Nothing says I Love You more than diamonds.
9.) If you can’t say it show it. When you have no voice whether you’re too shy or just plain scared remember there is always the written word. Even if their ears can’t hear your voice, their heart can still be thrilled by the message. Remember that your eyes are the window to your soul, use them to your benefit!
10.) If you want the rainbow you have to put up with the rain. What could be worse than the total agony of being in love? The unknown. The risk. The rejection. The happily ever after dream that taunts you in your sleep. Loving someone who doesn’t love you back? Ugh, it can be brutal. But love, TRUE love is worth it in the end. It’s worth the fight. It’s worth the tears. It’s worth the risk of knowing you could lose it. Believe and open your eyes....
because love actually IS all around you. And love actually IS worth it all.
It’s the movie of all movies. From the moment it starts, ten different baits are cast at my heart, hooked at all angles and reeled in. My soul is taken to a magical land of emotion for over an hour and a half then returned to my fluttering chest. Swollen, burning and beaming with sensations that only a good film can create. Every time I watch it I pick up on something new and the lessons so eloquently imbedded in this motion picture are endless. It’s like some intense educational course that rides you along a roller coaster of love, wisdom, and the ever-changing adventures of the heart.
Here is my take on the top TEN lessons on love brought to you by the glorious film “Love Actually”
1.) Love speaks no language, knows no age, and has no agenda. It has no comprehension of inconvenience, no sense of time and no control, yet if you let it, it can still conquer all.
2.) There may be more than one person in the world for you but nobody in the world will be able to tell you that when you are deep in the throes of love. If someone has it bad for a particular person they get tunnel vision and there is nothing you can do to change their mind.
3.) It’s true. Women love musicians. If you don’t have looks on your side I suggest you pick up a guitar and give it your all. Even the ugliest of musicians can find love! Look at Mick Jagger and Steven Tyler.
4.) If you go to a bar in Wisconsin it’s pretty easy to get laid, especially if you have an accent and are willing to shell out a few bucks to buy her drinks. Or just hit up the Midwest in general. Preferably the small towns, those girls like to party and are drawn to guys that “aren’t from around here.” It’s like a moth to a flame.
5.) Music touches the soul. Joni Mitchell writes from down deep and even though she claims to not know love at all I think she has a pretty good grasp at the strings of it. Evidence found in lyrics such as:
“Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "i love you" right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say
I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions i recall.
I really don't know life at all.”
6.) You can’t help the ones you love. Whether it be your best friend’s wife, your much older and very married boss, or a brown eyed beauty that doesn’t speak a lick of English. It’s really worth saying again: You can’t help the ones you love. Sometimes it feels wrong and sometimes it feels right but either way sometimes it’s out of your hands. It may work in your favor or it may teach you a lesson. Do with it what you may but be aware that love can be a gamble. Know when to held ‘em and know when to fold ‘em.
7.) Love is everywhere. You can’t escape it. Even if your heart feels like it has been ripped out of your chest by a dagger and left to wither away slowly, aching and swollen and totally disarranged. I assure you love is waiting on the side lines. You may lose a spouse. Your wife may be sleeping with your brother. Your husband has a wandering eye. These things happen every day but I assure you LOVE will still be there, in a new form just around the corner. It waits patiently. You cannot hide from it, love will find you.
8.) The purchasing of jewelry is reserved for your significant other. Women always appreciate a nice piece of jewelry and don’t think otherwise. Nothing says I Love You more than diamonds.
9.) If you can’t say it show it. When you have no voice whether you’re too shy or just plain scared remember there is always the written word. Even if their ears can’t hear your voice, their heart can still be thrilled by the message. Remember that your eyes are the window to your soul, use them to your benefit!
10.) If you want the rainbow you have to put up with the rain. What could be worse than the total agony of being in love? The unknown. The risk. The rejection. The happily ever after dream that taunts you in your sleep. Loving someone who doesn’t love you back? Ugh, it can be brutal. But love, TRUE love is worth it in the end. It’s worth the fight. It’s worth the tears. It’s worth the risk of knowing you could lose it. Believe and open your eyes....
because love actually IS all around you. And love actually IS worth it all.
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