SUGAR. It is my #1 crutch besides my shoe fetish. I was born with a sweet tooth and CRAVE it every day of my life. Chocolate, pastries, ice cream, whip cream, you name it. I want it.
In an attempt to kick this sugar frenzy I have read a book called “THE CRAVING CURE” This book promised to break the hold on sweets and cure the sugar addiction I have. I have now finished the book and am enjoying my 2nd bowl of ice cream as I type this... I’m pissed and I want my money back, but I think I realized what the problem is NOT.
There were some strong suggestions in this book and I tried them all. I have done the breathing exercises and the meditations. I have read every page and I get where the author is coming from, but I don’t have all the problems that this book suggests. I am not fat by any means and am not attempting to “diet” or “lose weight” here. I just want to minimize the sugar intake in my life for health purposes because I know the horrific damage that sugar can do to the body and let’s face it sugar is the devil. Refined sugar is extremely acidic to a lethal degree. Yes sugar is a drug. It alters your mind, your physiology, and your health in general. It is a low grade poison. In know this. I still crave it. Crazy as it sounds.
This book says perhaps I don’t “love” myself and suggests I take out a piece of paper and interview myself writing down my good qualities. Honey, I could write a book on my good attributes so I hardly had time for that. I am my own best friend and I luuuurve myself to pieces. I just don’t love myself when I am on my 9th Godiva chocolate in a 5 minute time span. Next chapter...
Identifying emotional eating. Hmm....aren’t we always feeling some sort of emotion? It says if we eat when we’re happy and eat when we’re sad than we are an emotional eater. WTH? I’m happy 95% of the time. I am happy with every bite I take of any food because I’m a happy person! Unless I eat during my sleep, I will be feeling some sort of an emotion. When I’m happy I do not eat more or less, and when I’m pissed I usually drink it away with booze and laugh my misery away. So I don’t have that problem.
Getting in touch with your inner self. No this does not mean masturbating. This is about thinking and deciding where your desire to eat sweets come from. What are you feeling when you reach for something sweet? Which voice dominates your thoughts? Does this stress you out? Do you try to talk yourself out of it? Why? How do you feel after you eat it? I’m to write all this down every time I want to eat anything sugary. I am to then dig within and find my inner wisdom to make the correct decision. Um. If I carried a notebook around with me and went through this questionnaire every time a co-worker brought me a croissant they’d look at me like I was nuts. Besides, I am in touch with myself in more ways than one and I still want the mocha flavored blended frappe with whip cream to which I will inhale through a straw until I’m blue in the face.
There were 16 different breathing exercises in one chapter. Very relaxing. I felt great after them. I still craved sugar the next day. I can’t be meditating all throughout the damn day people.
Then came this whole diet section of the book. It began with a 2 week mega-nutrition cleanse. Liquids only. You could only have fresh raw vegetable juices. Where does one even find dandelion root? Should I really be drinking garlic and cilantro in the morning? Major bowel explosions were expected to happen. Um. I have a life here. A job. I do actually leave my house. I do not want to spend unpredictable hours on the toilet thank you. I do not want to purchase a $1200 juicer either. The next part of this diet involved eating meat and I’m a vegetarian. Besides I do not want to change any other part of my very healthy diet in order to kick this sugar craze. I just wish to no longer love donuts and candy like a 4 yr. old kid.
I am not angry. I do not have daddy issues (anymore). I am not insecure or depressed. I'm not stressed. I'm mentally stable. I don’t eat chocolate to fill a void or because I’m a piggy. The reason I crave the crap is because I was born that way and I LIKE THE WAY SUGAR TASTES IN MY MOUTH.
That being said, I am calling a hypnotist tomorrow because I think that’s the only way I can be fixed!
Stay tuned....
